News organisations descended onto a street in London to report on the latest terror attack to strike Europe recently.. A women in her 60s lay dead and 5 other people suffered stab wounds. Professor Charlie Beckett is Head of Polis a journalism think tank at the London School of Economics, and he spoke to Jason McCrossan on 106.9 SFM
Having left New York less than 3 weeks after the bombs went off in Chelsea district I felt a little unnerved by what happened. I couldn’t quite work out why, until I remembered how secure I felt as I wandered around the hot and sweaty city – confident that I was more secure here than if I was to walk around a capital city of most European countries. As someone who works in London, and who still remember the events of 7 July 2005 vividly – as I marched through the streets of London, among the thousands of commuters, making my our way home on foot – or to the nearest available bus.
But of course, these days it is foolish to believe that you are 100% safe in any country. Those days, sadly, are a thing of the past and I as someone who even works out where the exits are in a cinemas…just in case….. (usually at the front and therefore difficult to get to) – I had assumed that being in America, far away from lines of desperate migrants trying to find safety in a European home – I’d be far away from the troubles – but I guess, the terrorists desire is that we are never far away.
Luckily the statistics around being caught up in a terrorist incident are quite good “Even if the current level of attacks continues for 80 years (which would be unprecedented), a child born today…would have only one percent of a one percent chance of being killed in one.”
Jason has more reaction to those terrible events over in America as President Obama says the Orlando gunman, who shot dead 49 people at a gay nightclub, was a home-grown terrorist. Omar Mateen’s father has condemned his son – saying he’s “sad” but also “mad” about the attack.
We will hopefully cross live to Orlando and get the latest news and reaction.
After 9pm tonight we talk about another murder – but on British soil and one that happened over 30 years ago. Hilda Murrell was 78 and an anti-nuclear campaigner – when she was abducated from her home – stabbed and left to die in the Shropshire country side. Her nepher, former naval commander Robert Green – insists that she was killed by the state and or nuclear interested parties.
There is the latest music news and we may even hear from Nigel Farage who was in #sittingbourne #kent today.
The featured artist is Paul McCartney who turns 74 on Saturday – after 8pm we have 4 non-stop songs from the man with Wings.
In the early hours of June 12, 2016, a gunman, who I’m not interesting in naming, walked into the gay night club called Pulse in Orlando, Florida and started shooting at a group of lesbian, gay, bi-sexual and transgendered people – who were doing nothing but being who they were and enjoying themselves.
This was a direct attack on gay people, freedom, humans, love and a different way of life. As a gay man in love with another man you are always aware that there are people who would hurt, damage or kill people like me – just because of who they love. Attitudes to gay people have fundamentally changed in the UK since I was born in the late 1970s. Hostility was very present in the 80s when gay bars started to spring up in cities, albeit usually in discrete and concealed places – until the 90s and 2000s when the gay movement stopped hiding and people like me felt comfortable being open about our sexuality at work and so rather than being some distant object of derision – we become up close and personal with our straight colleagues – who realised – we were just like them.
But we are still not in a world, or country where being gay is still acceptable across the board. When a bakery can refuse service to customers who wanted a gay themed cake because it is ‘against their belief’ – backed up by Christian groups and media elements. It demonstrates to gay people that although we have journeyed far – the route back to the dark ages of the 1950s when we were illegal, arrested and in-prisoned – isn’t as far away as we might like to believe.
On my Monday Matters radio show I spoke to gay radio presenter DJ Justice, who presents his show in Orlando and often visited Pulse and lost people that he knew in the atrocity.
Former detective Nigel Boulton is the original designer of the multi-agency safeguarding hub (MASH), and now supporting MASH delivery and safeguarding improvements around the UK.
Nigel spoke to Jason McCrossan on his Monday Matters radio show on 106.9 SFM (www.sfmradio.com) about how MASH is used to share information across agencies and identify children and vulnerable adults who are at risk from Female genital mutilation, extremism, radicalisation just to name a few.
Jason spoke to Nigel on the day that 26 year old Tareena Shakil was found guilty of taking her toddler son to Syria to join terror group ISIS. Tareena had fled to the war-torn region in October 2014 after telling her family she was going on holiday to Turkey. She was found guilty of being a member of ISIS and encouraging acts of terror, becoming the first British woman to be convicted after return from the terror heartland.
Well known campaigner Maryam Namazie had been invited to talk at Goldsmiths University on December 3 by the Atheist, Secularist and Humanist Society campus group, on speech on blasphemy and apostasy.
However, as she was speaking members of the Goldsmiths University Students Union’s Islamic Society (ISOC), who had already try to ban her from speaking, began to heckle, with one switching off a projector and when looking at the video, it does show hat that Maryam was subjected to intimidation by a group of Islamic men who were set up disruption rather than engagement.
The Islamic students disrupted the speech, entitled ‘Apostasy, blasphemy and free expression in the age of Isis’, because they claimed it “violated their safe space”.
Most surprisingly, Maryam told me how both Goldsmiths LGBT Society and Goldsmiths Feminist society “sent a solidarity message with the Islamists who disrupted my talk, rather than with me, someone who is a women’s rights campaigner, gay rights campaigner – someone who has campaigned for the free expression that these societies are using”.
I couldn’t quite believe what Maryam was telling me however she went on to say “they have labelled me an Islamophobe. They’ve shown solidarity with Isamic Society brothers who actually have invited speakers in the past who defend the execution of gay people, who defend the execution of apostates and it’s such an irony that they would support them”. Maryam said that identity politics had removed politics and choices from being debated and all that was left for some people was their identify as a muslim and “therefore anyone who identifies as a muslim is automatically seen to be the oppressed one in this conversation”.
And in further developments, Zak Thomas from Goldsmiths Students’ Union paper The Leopard wrote that “Members of the Islamic Society (ISOC) and the Atheist and Humanist Society (ASH) could face disciplinary action after a row broke out”. When asked to comment about the investigation into those members of (ASH) – who had tried to restore order Maryam commented “afraid so” on twitter. The Leopard went on to quote Goldsmiths SU and said that the “SU will arrange a meeting between both societies specifically to identify how the incident should be dealt with”.
A newspaper is on the kitchen table, displaying pictures of the four suicide bombers’ impenetrable eyes – or maybe it just seems that way to me. For the first time, I look properly and deeply at the picture of Mohammed Sidique Khan, the one responsible for the death of my daughter.
I am full of loathing. I feel no compassion for him. Did Jenny look into those eyes, I wonder, in the instant of her death or seconds before? The mere thought of it is intolerable and I thrust the paper to one side.
People say that it’s the not-knowing which is the worst time, the waiting. I don’t feel that to be true. In the not-knowing, there is hope and in the waiting there is possibility.
This – reality, facts, confirmation that Jenny has been identified through dental records – is worse: all the hope and possibility we nurtured and cherished in the five days after the 7/7 bombings disappeared yesterday.
Numbness is creeping through me. I curl up on my sister’s sofa at her house in Reading, where I’ve been staying ever since I started searching for my daughter. My eyes fix on the doorway, and over and over I think I see Jenny walk through, kick off her shoes and smile. This is not comforting; it’s a longing.
I want to see my daughter’s body. I know this is something I must do, yet the police seem reluctant and slightly embarrassed. I sense that pressure has been put on our two family liaison officers to dissuade me from going straight to the mortuary in London.
Who is looking after Jenny? Who is honouring her, taking care of her? Nobody has answers, only advice: better that I wait until she can be moved to an undertaker’s in Reading – where she has a house with her partner, James. I acquiesce, even though I have to live with the realisation that I’m abandoning my child to bureaucracy because I didn’t insist hard enough or long enough for an alternative.
Then the police call to ask if I’d like a priest with me when I go to see her. They’re clearly concerned about the impact her injuries will have on me.
But I know I’ll be OK, and that this is something I want to do on my own for my daughter, and for myself. In this one thing I feel strong, empowered, as if Jenny were drawing me to her, compelling me to attend to certain things.
I feel I must see for myself and touch for myself; I must care for her in death. In the simplest mother-and-child ritual, I want to tuck Jenny into bed and prepare her for sleep. I believe with all my heart that this is what she would want from me.
I’m going to anoint her body. In religious terms, anointing is a symbol of the indwelling of the Holy Spirit, but more importantly for me it’s a ritual which transcends words. It reflects the intimacy of mother and child, the intimacy of loving, human touch.
The image I now carry in my heart is the Pieta: the image of a suffering mother who’s had her heart pierced. It’s an image of a mother having her child’s body restored to her when everyone else is done with it: broken, damaged and with all the life gone from it. At the moment, I feel it’s all that faith has to offer me.
The little phial of oil I’ll be using, loaned by a local priest, is in a large Georgian silver container. There was some mirth among my family when it was delivered to the house in a Tesco carrier bag.
‘The notion of God holding Jenny in his hands, when only yesterday I looked upon her lifeless and mutilated body, is anathema’
When I arrive at the undertaker’s, Pauline, one of our police family liaison officers, is waiting. She leads the way down a dimly-lit corridor. Nothing has prepared me for entering the room and seeing the coffin. No imagining or past experience. It is stark and shocking.
For a while all I can do is stand and stare, too full of fear to move forward. Pauline has taken my hand and guided me over to where I’m now standing, looking down at my daughter’s body shrouded mostly in muslin.
‘You can hold her hand,’ Pauline is saying gently.
My hand is warm and shaking and Jenny’s is cold and still. It isn’t enough. I want to lift her body out, hold her in my arms and breathe life into her.
I make do with leaning over and kissing every finger, examining them as I did when she was born. Her nails are flush with the end of her fingers.
‘She kept her nails short, because of playing the piano,’ I say. I realise I’ve spoken in the past tense. ‘
I can only anoint Jenny’s hand and place my hand under hers, looking for a moment at both our hands resting together on the cover. Then I dip the middle finger of my other hand into the oil and prepare to anoint with the sign of the Cross.
‘I can’t remember the words!’ I cry out in panic. Pauline is standing back in the corner of the room.
‘I’m sure whatever you say will be perfect.’
And so I proceed with anointing my daughter’s body.
‘In your beginning I anointed you with water, blood and milk, blessed you with tears… and now I anoint you with oil in the name of this mystery we call God…’
The words continue, not liturgically correct but from the depths of my being, and tears flow and merge with the oil on Jenny’s lifeless lovely hand until there are no more words, only tears and sobs, from a mother standing over her daughter’s coffin and a police officer in the far corner of the room. I believe it was for this moment that I was ordained a priest.
‘It’s Jenny,’ I confirm to my sister Vanda when I arrive back at her house. ‘I could tell by her hands.’
I know I must phone my husband Greg and our children Lizzie and Thomas, but I think I must be a little bit in shock. I’m finding it difficult to talk and can’t stop shaking.
In the sitting room, I curl up on the sofa in the foetus position, cradling a tight little bundle of Jenny’s T-shirts. I feel so full of my daughter and so empty of anything else.
Later, in my room, I kiss the bundle and place it in my suitcase as lovingly and carefully as if it were a baby being set down in a crib. I even talk to the bundle: ‘How mad is your mother becoming, Jenny?’
I zip the suitcase shut but then change my mind and open it up again. Closed, the case is too much like a coffin.
These are strange thoughts and fancies, and I’m very glad of my six-year-old nephew William’s appearance in the doorway.
‘Grief has come too early to James. It shows its bleakness in his hunched shoulders. Jenny’s death is the death of their future together’
There’s a question in his voice.
‘How big was the bomb? Do you think it was this big?’ William is forming his hands to the size and shape of a football. ‘Or was it this big?’ He’s now stretching his arms around and in front of him as though he’s holding a large beach ball.
I tell him it probably wasn’t that big because the bomber carried it in his backpack.
It’s now ten days since Jenny was killed. As I take a cup of coffee to my 17-year-old son Thomas, it dawns on me I’ve hardly spent any time with him.
He shrugs his shoulders in a hopeless gesture: ‘I miss Jenny.’
His face is crumbling. ‘I don’t get it. Why they wanted to kill people in their own country. Why couldn’t they go somewhere else to do it? Jenny was so good. Why did they have to kill her? I hate them for what they did.’
At the kitchen table, my 22-year-old daughter Lizzie has been looking at some of the newspaper reports and is becoming very upset.
‘How dare they put a picture of these murdering bastards next to a picture of my sister,’ she says.
She’s picked up a pen and is scribbling over the page, wielding the instrument with ferocity until the four faces are covered in blue ink and the paper torn.
Meanwhile, masses of cards are still arriving: simple messages of condolence, outpourings of grief and attempts at comfort. One card, though, provokes an angry response from me. The message inside reads ‘God is holding Jenny in his hands.’
If God is holding Jenny in his hands now, why wasn’t he holding her in his hands when she died? Why didn’t he keep her safe?
Every card is kindly meant, I know that. Even so, I don’t believe anything is that simple. The notion of God holding Jenny in his hands, when only yesterday I looked upon her lifeless and mutilated body, is anathema.
The next morning, I go round to see Jenny’s partner, James, at the house they shared. He makes me a cup of tea, his actions slow and robotic. Even though his height and physical presence dominate their small kitchen, it’s as if some part of him is far away.
Grief has come too early to James. It shows its bleakness in his hunched shoulders. Jenny’s death is the death of their future together. It is the death of possibility – of their children, grandchildren, their hopes and dreams.
I feel stirrings of rage against the destructive force which has annihilated such beauty and potential. I feel the rage rising, perfectly in tune with the steam forcing its way from the kettle.
‘Go and look through Jen’s things if you’d like to,’ he says.
Unsure, feeling slightly as though I’m intruding, I climb the short flight of stairs to the small landing at the top. There, I stand at the window gazing out at the houses opposite, wondering if the neighbours have any clue about the miser y unleashed within these walls.
You’d never know, standing out there in the quiet and empty street, that the face at the window of number 77 is the mother of a dead child; or that the man downstairs washing mugs in the sink is the distraught lover of a young woman recently blown up by a terrorist bomb.
I want someone to put their arms around me and tell me everything’s going to be all right. I want my beautiful daughter not to be dead
From the outside, this dear home looks the same as any other in the terrace. It’s a facade. The heartache is politely hidden. No one need know. I have to turn away from the window before I start screaming.
The bedroom is full of Jenny. Tentatively, I touch a blue turquoise scarf. Even before I lift it to my face, I know it will smell of Jenny’s perfume. I inhale into its folds deeply as if the scarf is an oxygen mask, breathing in Jenny and the scent of J’adore and breathing out memories.
I suspect one of the last things Jenny did before leaving this room on her last morning was to squirt a jet of perfume on to each side of her neck before kissing James goodbye and setting off for work.
If only she’d decided to stay home for the day. If only she’d overslept, if only something had delayed her, if only I’d chosen that moment to call, if only she’d missed her train, if only she’d got to the end of the road and realised she’d left her purse behind. If only I could have kept her safe and if only a certain dark stranger whose name I will not utter in this room had never been born.
Back at Vanda’s house, I speak to my husband on the phone. When I say ‘I’m arranging for Jenny’s body to be brought back to Bristol,’ Greg appears unable to speak. He’s trying not to break down.
‘Do you think you might want to see her?’
‘No, I can’t, but I’d like to know she’s close to us.’
Now neither of us can speak, both fighting back tears and keeping the floodgates firmly sealed. I cannot bear my husband’s pain. In a matter of days, we’ve almost become strangers. In Greg’s grief, he cannot bear to look at pictures of Jenny; in my grief, I want to be surrounded by them.
Our relationship has been troubled for some time. In our hearts, we both know our marriage is over. But there’s no time, no emotional space to deal with more than our daughter’s death. The issues that are before us – marriage, relationship, separation – are for the future. Now is for Jenny.
I want to run and run and run, but there’s nowhere to go. I want someone to put their arms around me and tell me everything’s going to be all right. I want my beautiful daughter not to be dead. I want to tear my hair from my head and dig my nails into my flesh.
The next day, we’re visited by our family liaison officers, Pauline and Colin. They tell us the police are arranging to meet victims’ families at the Royal Horticultural Halls in London on Sunday for a current appraisal and briefing. After that, we can visit Edgware Road Tube station if we wish.
The briefing takes place 17 days after the bombings. We’re shown into a vast space packed with people sitting at round tables covered with starched white tablecloths. At the centre of each are flowers in a mix of soft summer colours. The room is arrayed like a wedding reception.
I can see a girl in a metal brace. Was she injured in the explosions, I wonder? I’m surprised that survivors may be here as well as families of those killed, and equally surprised at how disturbed I am by this.
I find I can listen to the people on the podium and take notes quite impassively, as I might at a business meeting. Detached, I note how many calls the Casualty Bureau took on the day of the bombings – 43,000 – and how calls were prime time and cost 40p per minute.
The time of each explosion is given. I add this information to the page even though the time of the Edgware Road bomb is etched on my mind: 08.50. It’s the demarcation time between life and death.
With the speaker’s voice fading in and out of my consciousness, I see Jenny looking up from her book, taking in the people around her and checking the time on her watch, a slight look of anxiety on her face as she realises she’ll be late for work. Then I see an image of a startled face with terrified eyes as Jenny is blown backwards out of the carriage, still clutching the book.
I’ve no idea if this is how it happened; in the absence of detail I add my own. I hope, as I hope every hour of every day, that there was no time for her to be terrified.
I still have so many questions — but now we’re being told we shouldn’t ask anything relating to our particular situation. Hackles are already starting to rise, mine included.
Some of the survivors have complaints.
It’s not helpful, bundling us all together in this way: I can’t bear this feeling of wanting to stand and scream that they should just be glad to be alive.
A man near the front is on his feet.
‘Please stop referring to this as an event or incident,’ he tells the people on the podium.
‘It is murder! Please call it that!’
This sparks collective applause and foot-stamping.
Now I’m on my feet, my black-sleeved arm in the air. As it happens, it is not so much a question, more an outpouring of feeling. ‘I have no doubt the intention of today was pure, and I can only speak for myself, but it feels like a PR exercise.
‘I never want to feel again as I have felt in these past few minutes, sorry that someone else is alive when Jenny is not’
You say this is not a day for specific questions; well, I only have specific questions,’ I say.
‘I am a mother whose daughter was killed in this “incident”, as you call it. Please do not speak in jargon and treat us like anything less than mature, adult human beings.’
In my embarrassment I hardly register a response, if indeed there is one. Lunch is announced. Then there’s a girl in front of us.
She’s falling against the table and words are spilling out in a rush; she’s saying over and over: ‘I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m so sorry I’m here and your daughter is not’.
I don’t know who she is. The girl puts her head on my shoulder and I try to comfort her: an instinctive gesture. It seems she was in the same carriage as Jenny.
Even as I offer comfort, I want to cry out: ‘I’m sorry, too. Why must I hold someone else’s child when the only child I want to hold is my own?’ Even as I say ‘It’s all right; it’s all right,’ I know it’s not.
Nothing here is all right, not the tall angular limbs or the bony shoulder blades beneath my hands or the antiseptic smell of shampoo or the hair which is dark where it should be fair and short where it should be long.
There’s none of the soft warmth and ebullience so familiar in Jenny’s embrace, no daughter curves moulding into mine, no familiar smell that I have known for 24 years and clung on to in a rolled-up bundle of clothes for the past two weeks.
Repulsion is rising in my gut: why can’t someone come and take this girl away? Yet I can’t abandon her. So as she leans against me, her body trembling, I stroke this stranger’s back and feel the warmth of her body, and I think of my own daughter lying in a coffin without warmth and without her mother.
This makes me hold the girl closer, though my mind is far away from her. I’ve gone to Jenny, raised her from the coffin and drawn her to me. I’ve enfolded her in my arms, crooning as we rock backwards and forward: ‘It’s all right, it’s all right, it’s all right.’
My heart goes out to the survivor as I watch her walk slowly back across the room, shaking and head bowed. I didn’t even ask her name. I never want to feel again as I have felt in these past few minutes, sorry that someone else is alive when Jenny is not.
Colin drives us to Edgware Road, where we have to get out and walk because the Tube station is cordoned off. With determination, I prepare to move towards Jenny’s place of death, side-by-side with her beloved James.
We’re escorted to the platform by the station manager who was on duty on July 7. Down here, time and even air seems suspended. I’m not aware of feeling any emotion; no anger, no passion, no rising tears. I’m aware only of a grey stillness
that reaches right into my bones.
Where would Jenny have been standing? Would she have been waiting on the platform as the train pulled in or would she have come running down the steps and jumped into the nearest carriage?
By leaning forward, we can peer into the grey dustiness of the tunnel.
There isn’t much to see, only grime and cables and brick walls. Yet this place holds Jenny’s last breath, her final moments. I have a strong impulse to go inside the tunnel, as if by doing so I can somehow reach her — but it’s no surprise to learn the answer is ‘no’, because of health and safety.
Then, as I stand here, looking into the darkness, the shadowy face of a stranger intrudes. Did Mohammed Sidique Khan have a wife? Wouldn’t she have had at least some idea of what was being planned? Who is this stranger who came into our lives and didn’t care about those he was killing?
Jenny’s life, which was lived in beauty, has ended in cruel disregard and violation. I’m consumed with more anger than I believed I could ever feel.
Extracted from A Song For Jenny: A Mother’s Story Of Love And Loss by Julie Nicholson, to be published by HarperCollins on June 24 2011 at £14.99.
The medieval way in which terrorist organisation ISIS dispatched Muadh al-Kasasbeh, a Jordanian pilot, to his death in January 2015 was something that caused nausea to anyone who cherishes life and believes in human dignity. Of course, not everyone gasped a breath of repulsion with news reports circulating that Isil broadcast the murder on giant public screens to crowds that included young children cheering and chanting in Raqqa, the de facto capital of Islamic State of Iraq and the Levant.
Of course, I say medieval – however, one does not need to look back to the middle ages to find tales of atrocious behaviour carried out by man kind up man kind. As is pointed out in the blog “We Are Respectable Negroes”
For almost a century, the United States practiced a unique cultural ritual that was as least as gruesome as the “Medieval” punishments meted out by ISIS against its foes.
What is now known as “spectacular lynching” involved the ceremonial torture, murder–and yes, burning alive–of black Americans by whites.
In fact, the burned to death images of the black body were one of the most popular types of mass culture in 19th and 20th century America.
And who can forget the many atrocities carried out by German’s under the NAZI flag including beastly experiments with victims coerced into participating; they did not willingly volunteer and there was never informed consent. Typically, the experiments resulted in death, disfigurement or permanent disability, and as such are considered as examples of medical torture.
The terror and brutality that is being carried out by ISIS is not new – the speed and method of the delivery of the images is. I’m grateful to have been brought up in the West – in a country where religion is a private matter and the freedom to live life is not dictated by the passages of a religious text or by the gun or knife or a brutal regime that won’t accept dissent. People in Britain must be free to choose to have a religion or not – but it must be a choice and as Allison Pearson writes in the telegraph:
Yesterday came a damning official report by Louise Casey saying that Labour’s Rotherham borough council was “in complete denial” and had failed to respond properly to last year’s scathing report by Prof Alexis Jay. Men of Pakistani origin had been allowed to abuse white girls in part because of “misplaced political correctness”: council staff were terrified of being labelled racist. Cowards and fools, they “decided such issues should be dealt with by people from the Pakistani community”. Good thinking, chaps!
In Rotherham, Casey also found that police had failed to pursue Pakistani perpetrators for fear of “offending the community”.
What community? Not yours and mine, that’s for sure. So desperate is the situation that Whitehall-appointed commissioners are to move in and take over the council. In Rotherham, we see with terrible clarity how the whole edifice of multiculturalism is as rotten as a Tudor monarch’s mouth.
What Allison fails to note is that the kind of abuse that happened in Rotherham isn’t just limited to a particular ethnic group – white men will take just as much advantage of girls as any other race – the worrying element is if the report is true and staff failed to act out of a fear of being racist. And this is why I am strongly against religious schools where children are divided along lines of cultural and often racial background and never mix with anyone who is not of their belief nor race. This cannot be good for our future.
If we are to learn anything from the atrocities committed by ISIS – is that we must integrate the different cultures and backgrounds that exist within Britain better than we are doing at the moment. What makes a teenage boy or girl think that their life is only valuable when it has a bomb attached to it and they are kill themselves and as many people as they can?
How did we let this situation happen? The Prime Minister David Cameron has jumped in feet first to tackle what they would term welfare scroungers – but what about extremists and extremism? It is lazy to think of this as a muslim probably – any more than suggesting that when the IRA was active on British shores they were a catholic problem.
One of the reasons we elect politicians is to make us safe – so far, they have failed us. But if UKIP is the answer – we’re most definitely asking the wrong questions.